So my friend was here last week and while she was here she was feeling pretty sick. As much as I hate to admit it, I think I might have picked up a bit of her cold, as all day yesterday my throat was pretty scratchy and now today I've had a headache and not the happiest stomach for most of the afternoon. I have seriously considered going to bed soon, but I am pretty sure that if I did I wouldn't make it through the whole night.
I hate not feeling great (I am definitely not sick...just feeling off)....not that anyone really likes it... but I can be such a baby about it. My friend traveled here and then worked for a few days even though she was feeling so much more crappier than me and here I am claiming I need to go to bed. I am such a baby.
The truth of the matter is I don't get sick very often and because of that, I think it's possible I never learned how to deal with being sick. During my 12 years of schooling I was only sick 3 times...But I mean sick... and it lasted weeks! And I worked over 5 years at a book store and only called out sick (because I was actually sick) 1 time! Yet since moving here to Ecuador, I have gotten quite a few colds and 24-48 hour bugs.... not a whole lot, but more than I had in all the time before I moved here. I think the germs may be different here.
The thing is, that when I am sick, I want everyone to know. I'm not super annoying about it... like I don't get whinny or have the poor me, I need attention attitude (at least I don't think I do), but I want people to know what's going on so that I kind of have an excuse if I need to go to bed early or I don't go do some activity.
What's weird though is that I am not like that in all the other parts of my life. Obviously I share parts of myself with people. I will tell you my opinions are if you ask and sometimes even when you don't. I will tell you all about the good things that have happened in my day or even the embarrassing stories. I will share about what God is teaching me or about how He is using me. But if I am struggling, if there's something hard I am dealing with, if my "soul" is "sick" in any way.... I'm most likely not going to say anything.
I think we all have things that we don't talk about though, and we all have our reasons for not doing so. But isn't it funny that in our world it's so much easier to complain about being sick than to admit a struggle. It's such a stigma, even though that's slightly starting to change, to say any of "those" things. While people don't mind if you tell them you have the flu, it sure makes people feel uncomfortable if you say your dealing with such-in-such. How do we change that? How do we make it less uncomfortable? Is that even possible? Those are my thoughts for today....